Well I was going to stop blogging but I realize that it kind of helps me vent when I am either happy or not so happy. And today I really need to do some venting so I'm back hopefully I can keep up on it a little better. We have had a lot going on so I will just start with the most exciting event. On February 19th we were blessed with our 2nd child. Caleb Manuel Turman. I went into the hospital at 7 a.m. to be induced turns out I was already in labor! At 12:45 he was born. I still can't believe he was 9 lbs. 4 oz. I knew he would be big but wow!! And such an easy labor I am still in shock. He came out screaming and hasn't really cried since. He is such an easy going little guy. Usually just tries to be patient with me while I deal with his sister or patient while his over eager big sister snuggles him to death. She loves being a big sister and loves Caleb more then I could have imagined. Every morning the first thing she asks is, "Where's my brother?" So she has to go see him and give him hugs and kisses before she can start her day. She has not shown one sign of jealousy towards the baby, even when I am buisy with him (usually feeding him) and can't play with her right away. We were able to bring him home for 2 weeks then he got very sick with RSV. We had to admit him to the hospital for a few days for oxygen and breathing treatments. It was harder on me then Caleb I'm sure. It was a balancing act trying to keep one parent at the hospital with Caleb while another took care of Olivia. And since I am breast feeding I stayed at the hospital the most. Every night I would leave for the hospital and Olivia would just cry and beg me not to go. It still breaks my heart thinking of it. But luckily we were able to bring him home after 3 days in the hospital. He was on oxygen at home for another week but I could handle that as long as I was home with him. I feel very ashamed to admit this but I think I am just barely really falling in love with Caleb. It's horrible to say that but the month has been so full of emotional rollercoasters I haven't had a chance to just enjoy the little guy until now. He is absolutly beautiful (I know I have a biased opinion) and everytime I take him out someone comments on his hair. I can't believe Olivia and Caleb are my kids. I'm a mother of two and as hard as the last month has been I feel so incredibly blessed to have them in my life. I try to remind myself that everyday when I sit down to look over our outrageous hospital bills. So what we are poor at least we have each other and things will get paid off in time. I would also like to say thank you to my friends and family that helped so much with meals and mental support during the last month. Not having to worry about dinner helped out more then I thought it would and I really appreciate everyone thinking about us and supporting us.
Some pictures!!!
And now for some difficult news. I know I posted a few months ago about our sweet dog Bazil. Well unfortunetly the tumors are back and much worse. We have been given 2 options: Pay $700 (which we don't have) for them to be removed (they will come back and worse), Or say our goodbyes. Now this decision has been eating both of us up. We have had Bazil for 8 years and she has been nothing but a perfect, loyal pup. We might be saying goodbye soon but I guess I'm just asking for prayers. Cody and I are really having a difficult time with this and luckily Bazil isn't suffering the tumors just itch so she licks all day long. I remember somebody telling me that the only reason they never had pets was because they couldn't stand the pain of letting them go. I never understood that until now. Anyway I know this isn't a happy story but I just feel that the more prayers out there maybe the easier the decision will be for us.
We love you Bazil May!!
